This application for the 2017 Parallel Perception Scholarship was submitted by Rashmi. If you would like to offer your support for Rashmi please leave a comment at the end of this blog post.
I came across Lujan Matus a while ago while googling information on a leopard’s tooth as a totem for my sons healing and became interested in his teachings.
I haven’t really delved into the books which Lujan kindly offered for free but I know in my heart there is something in them for me. I keep reading here and there but I need to resolve to finish reading one book at a time and absorb it . I can barely wait to read Shadows in the Twilight, which I am looking forward to receiving by post any day soon. At the same time I have been interested in Qigong and Tai Chi.
I barely give ‘time’ to myself and instead focus on being a responsible housewife. There have been a great many challenges in my life and I wish I could understand and love my family and accept them for who they are.
I have twin boys and their lives and stories have affected me greatly.I just wish I could go back to their childhood days and loved them even more for sometimes I feel their lives and stories would have been different if I had known myself better and then their upbringing would not have been the same. I never really bonded with them. Life was just something that was happening.
The last four weeks has been frightening. I underwent an angioplasty and something doesn’t feel the same. Death is right here whispering in my ears. And there’s fear!
Fear of what? I question myself time and again. And now how can I not love ?
The world is my mirror and no matter what I have to return love for hate. People’s behaviours are because of a lack of awareness and I have to work on myself instead of throwing justifications on how they should behave.
I also empathize with the world around me. There is disease and suffering all around.Living my truth would heal the web of dismay into one of unity and tolerance and Love.
I would like to transform worry into confidence and be guided by the Living Intelligence. I would like to empower myself with Lo Ban Pai and interacting with Lujan .
Our entire planet needs to be healed and I want to be of service.
Much love to all of you,
Rashmi
Morocco
Thank you, Rashmi, for your words. Thank you, Lujan, for this initiative.
Dear Rashmi, I love your courage and really appreciate you sharing where you’re at. Many blessings to you – may the road rise up to meet you.
With love.
You’re in the right place, Rashmi.
Rasmi, I really enjoyed reading this and hear echos of my own voice from the days I first began reading Lujan’s books and being exposed to him via other Internet means. When I picked up my first book about six years ago I could not put it down, and it is that way today. Of all the teachers I have had, his teaching has had the most profound impact and I flowed with it through all other teachings I received.
I still read his writings often and am constantly seeing and feeling it just a bit differently as my awareness illuminates more facets of life.
Good luck. The past two years I have applied, and last year I made the Top 10 so to speak, and now today, in this moment, I wait patiently for Who Am I.