Dear Lujan,
I hope you are well and thriving! I follow Parallel Perception posts and read the Whisperings of the Dragon. Reading now The Art of Stalking Parallel Perception.
Whisperings of the Dragon is a delicious gift. Thank you for that! The breath attention is a daily presence, also awareness of the voice and the feeling of surroundings as communion. I have stalked that way many scenes and emotions from my life and am aware of the liberating effect of inner emptiness or silence.
I decided to ask you about dreaming, something I have done a lot since childhood (lucid dreams, repetitive dreams, controlled dreams, clairvoyant dreams, if one can call them that way) and lately even awake dreaming, (which has different forms, some lucid sleep-alike dreams but awake, some like a feeling/knowing that a person is going to die soon, even if they look fine).
I feel now that I would like to understand dreaming better and wonder about the interpretation of dreams. I would be grateful if you let me know what you think about the following which is just a recent example:
I talked to a person I don’t really know online. Then I dreamed concrete situations, people and events. Later, it appeared that i have dreamed precise people and events in this person’s world, such as his mother, his friend, her mother, their situations and their characters as they are in reality. Some were alive, some had died recently. But everything I dreamed corresponded literally ‘reality’. I knew nothing about these people, I realized that the dreams were ‘true’ when this person told me about these people and showed me pictures, not knowing about my dreams.
So, now I wonder, have I dreamed this person’s subconscious or have I dreamed/tapped into realities independent of his ‘mind’? What is the explanation for these baffling in their insight dreams?
Thank you in advance!
Warmest regards,
Bilyana
As far as the obsession with wanting to have control over dreams or seek validation within the sphere of an unknowable part of oneself; this is only looking for self-gratification.
We all must let go of this sense of searching for power. We must allow the very delicate threads of communion to identify themselves to us within our waking world as genuine whisperings that are spoken unconsciously, straight from the virtual heart space that acknowledges individual existence and simultaneously is collectively known.
You must understand that I am looking at your question, not only from social validation, but the program. It has taught us to respond in a way that is self-validating within its own reflection.
The path of a warrior is to glean the subtleties of that which they cannot see nor know. Yet verbalize the unforeseeable through the words spoken directly from one’s heart center. Listening to this gives credence to “we are one”.
As you watch your feelings and speak the words that you tentatively listen to, they are not thought upon, nor are they possessed, for you have no idea where they have come from. Until your consciousness looks beyond the program and discovers the mysteries that awaken one’s insight that the way to travel upon this path is to become insignificant, especially to one’s self-identity.
So even if you discover your dreams have revealed to you, by revealing to me your dream you speak of what you have seen and all the corresponding congratulatory tones behind that. This is the first thing you must release yourself from. You must realize your wonders of wonders are yours alone and that mystery will not unfold if you cannot see the treasures deeply embedded within it by virtue of not speaking about it.
I do not say this in an air of condemnation, nor blame towards your inquiry. If you see it this way it is only your program reflecting on its need to be seen and if that is truly not there you veritably will disappear and upon that point understand everything that I have said.
In true humbleness one comes upon themselves, vanishing, never to be seen again, yet eternally available.
Thank you all for your time and care! Best wishes, Bilyana
It has been helpful and also uncomfortable to read the exchange here between the original querant and Lujan.
It’s helpful to see a teacher who is so clear and consistent.
It’s made me uncomfortable because I’ve been in Bilyana’s position numerous times in life. With teachers and with friends or any other type of relationship. People who would move away and shut things down with me and I did not really understand why. It was so painful to experience. Somehow I survived these separations and losses though and now I am starting to understand this concept of the program. And I can see why people in the past moved away from me and cut me off.
Unlike them though Lujan gives us confused humans a chance for clear feedback and instruction? Thank heavens. I really need this.
Thank you I will be contacting you soon.
Dear Adult Child, from my heart to your heart and this sharing are my own opinions. Thank you so much for sharing your bravery and honesty, it was heart warming and shook within the truth probably for most of us. Was there too, but the choice to change is also there for all of us when we are ready. For myself, would be told truths and could not see, feel it or understand, still had to fight my own internal battles by recognizing the enemy and still even harder was to face my own ignorance, insanity and darkness. It is very difficult to understand teachings that one is not ready or internally blocked to experience.
It is a very uplifting and loving experience when we see ourselves in another, that is part of the growth into awakening and very grateful to you, Bilyanna and Lujan’s loving example. It is through the experiences that we gain our own wisdom. It is all part of the return to the love that we are and Lujan’s teachings are love and light shinning in the darkness to help those who are ready to see and hear.
Nicole, thank you for sending me a message from your heart. And for relating and using words to help me see my experience has some connection to the larger struggle of us all?
You are right, it is hard to receive teachings when we are internally blocked. Even the material on this blog is confounding to me most of the time. I find I have to read and re-read certain phrases and even then I just have no concept of what is being described. Now I just skip over things if I feel too confused focus on going deeper into ideas that I seem to grasp at least a little bit.
I felt the same when listening to Lujan’s talks (in interview form) on YouTube. I’ve listened to all of them multiple times and still a line will pop up occasionally that I swear was not there before….
Well anyway thank you again Nicole, it soothed me to read your reply to my comment.
Another gift by a Master Teacher, through his example teaching the principles of unconditional love.
For clarity sake: the person i mentioned didn’t mean literally ‘forbid’, obviously no one can forbid neither sleeping nor dreaming as it happens naturally to everybody, he meant ‘discourage focus’, but expressed himself shortly (could be language issue). I wouldn’t call it gossip, he shared his own experiences, which were more than mine. I honestly don’t understand how dreams are enabling, at the same time, everybody dreams. Anything can drive me to a sensation of grandeur, so that is not special to them. Other people talk about inorganic beings, i have no idea what this is either. i don’t see how i can stop dreaming or remembering, since it is an effortless activity for all of us anyway. They are seldom if ever related to what i need or want, either, at least I can’t interpret them that way. I simply have many so called lucid dreams since childhood and recently started wondering and tried to understand what this is, beyond what science says. It appeared to be a hard question.
Bilyana, I believe I unreservedly must withdraw from the conversation with you at this point. What you’ve done here after almost twenty replies is flip the focus and you’ve done this semantically obviously because this is the field of communication that we are operating in at the moment. What you’ve done in this post is put forth plausible denial. In other words, you’ve rearranged your words.
In the rest of your post you’ve constructed a combative excuse in terms of “everybody else does this, it is just natural” in terms of your dreaming. This is your program attempting to defend itself through “what am I supposed to do with what I can’t change?”. This is also another statement of deniability with pointed accusation as your self-defense.
If ever we meet on Skype or in person I will deal with this very directly and you will find that the corner that you will be painted into will be of your own making but this can’t happen until I meet you and on that point it will be blatantly obvious that you must take responsibility for who you have created, which is your program being revealed.
As for the original flip the other person still isn’t here to speak on his own behalf because quite frankly by changing the words from “forbid” to “discourage focus” is only turning the tables on me away from yourself so I can be incorrect and you can be justified in your assertion that what I’ve said is unjust towards you.
As you can see this is a long drawn out withdrawal from my part, only to show a few elements of discovery so as to help the other participants understand why I will not continue beyond this point with you. I hope in the future to meet you to clarify the far-reaching effect of how the worldwide collective affects your awareness upon your own approval within the limited medium of social consciousness that is attempting to go beyond its limitation.
Hi Lujan: Being “humble” is a word that can cause a lot of confusion within. If you look up the word, the meanings expressed do not feel right in the heart. Feel it could be one of those social programs trying to instil the teaching of unworthiness or feeling lower than. In your wisdom, would you mind expanding the definition of this word as it applies in your teachings.
To be graciously humble is to live in a state of gratitude with so much intensity that you yourself disappear from any self-importance other than the magic of the moment that hasn’t arrived upon your path yet because of withdrawing from any form of self-validation. That is what I see as being humble.
Actually this is such a beautiful word. To love in a state of humbleness fills one with so much gratitude. It is, for me, the greatest gesture to give in humbleness and to receive the joy of not wanting anything in return.
It not only enables you to see gratitude from other people from a hidden state of observation that removes you so far from wanting anything that you actually receive massive amounts of love returning. But you must realize that the other person’s love for you arrives inside of you for this to be given back.
Thank you Lujan, now that feels right and is expressed wisdom softly communicated from the heart. These words have brought forth more understanding and seeds the willingness to feel ‘graciously humbled’ by surrender to this beautiful state of existence expressing love for all life.
Your words on how another person’s love for you arrives and how it is given back is priceless wisdom, thank you once more.
Lujan, thank you for your words regarding the young man in the video. They are concise and precise, deeply touching my heart and life. So beautiful. Thank you.
Lujan: Hope that you do not mind my pointing to areas in the book The Art of Stalking Parallel Perception that Bilyana is now reading.
Bilyana, pointing to these areas (gifts within the text) that may help empower you regarding “two years ago”. The chapter called Fear Not, Be Free, page 54.
Also would like to point to the “A warrior shaman from the Altai Mountains …. His nickname was “The Alchemist” and the reason that he was called this was that he could transform any situation into a beneficial circumstance …… page 301.
Finally to the Parables of the Dog and the Deer, page 226.
Look for the light within the darkness, that is where the most beautiful jewel will be found – you.
Thank you, Nicole! So kind of you! It so happens that i had a lucid rehearsal dream similar to the one described in ‘fear not, be free’ and a lucid dog and deer dream before i knew about the book. They may be healed, alchemically :-). Best wishes to you!
To be unassumingly humble is one of the hardest tasks for a warrior to achieve, for without this, the journey is halted in the stasis of that self-reflection.
Lujan
Split the wood, there you will find me.
Lift the stone and there you will appear.
Look upon your hand and there we converge.
Dear Lujan, Thank you! Indeed you voice exactly how i felt for a long time and still do, to not indulge nor talk about it, first not even to myself, then not to others, then i spoke as i was shocked by it these past 2 years, so shocked, my eyes big with a question, what is this, how is this possible. i dream so much every night, almost always water.
It is wonderful to get this confirmation from you, my heart feels it, as you feel it. It feels like when i smell my dog-friend’s paw, home.
The self-gratifying program, yes, it is going on inside me . No question about it. 🙂 But it is not alone, may be not even a king anymore. 🙂
Sometimes i catch it, sometimes not. 🙂
But you are right, i realize now that i got obsessed with searching power since i was attacked and assaulted 2 years ago. I don’t blame myself for it, seems natural; good to realize it.
Interestingly enough, right before you sent this post, a man contacted me online, he mentioned you for some reason and said that you forbid dreaming. I wondered what he means by this as, for me, dreaming and stalking are related.
Now I understand better.
with affection,
Bilyana
This is not true. Be careful not to be caught in the web of gossip. Giving half a truth is being deceitful.
I never once said I forbid anybody to do anything. I recommend that people don’t focus on dreaming because this focus is full of what they think they want and need, instead of what is really required for their evolutionary process. It is the same as giving a spoiled child something they don’t deserve. It is called enabling and almost everybody in our society loves to self-enable. Without the true experience wisdom can never be attained.
This is the reason why I put the video of a little boy who has suffered in his short lifetime to such a degree that the intolerable situation he endures has provided him with the tolerance he needs to survive it. He knows he’s got no time to waste thus he doesn’t expend his energy in illusions of grandeur. The plain hard truth stands before him and as it blocks his way doors open.
There are situations which can not be changed and have to be gracefully endured. Some may say this is life. 🙂 Yet, there are also energies that help us heal. May be dreaming is part of that healing and it therefore occurs. I am grateful to healing energies as well as to energies enabling enduring.
My heart is becoming filled with a lightness as I watch this warrior speak his truth. His inner light is so piercing and so precious that it draws out my own! He embodies what life is about, which is to be courageous enough to let out our inner light purely for the sake of helping others see and let shine their own inner light. What a blessing he is for showing what a blessing we all could be.
This is the experience of learning who we are and who we are not. All experiences, whether believed good or bad are for the purpose of growth. All the beliefs/perceptions/accepted thoughts are our chosen reality and we must take responsibility for our own happiness. You can clearly see that message in the video by Sam, so young in years yet an old soul. Shared with love.
From Sam’s speech: I don’t waste energy feeling bad for myself…
There is so much we can do, what is needed is only stop wasting energy feeling bad for one thing or another. I have discovered in my work that I can be quite good when I stop the loaded with negativity dialogue that is turned towards myself internally and leads only to waste of energy and time. When I stop it I find that everything else is around and some doors are even open…
In true humbleness one comes upon themselves, vanishing, never to be seen again, yet eternally available
Lujan, this is very beautiful. It reminds of most precious moments or treasures I have come upon in life. Thanks Bilyana and Lujan for this thread.
Sam Bems is a perfect example of how to “teach by example”, a beautiful and unique being reaching out with his heart hoping to uplift others. Thank you for sharing this video with us.