This application for the 2023 Parallel Perception Scholarship was submitted by Seini. To offer your support for Seini, please leave a comment at the end of this post.
For a long time, I have been hiding in plain sight.
A bit about my journey – The recent online Windlock System class helps me to put down my invisibility cloak that I have been clinging to like a security blanket.
Like most people around me, I have been cruising through life with the thief and ghost as my ever-constant companions. Oftentimes, embracing them like a long lost lover for desperate fear of identity loss should the thief and ghost desert me.
It feels like a push-pull, like a tide, coming in and going out, thinking that I am a wave, trying to be big or trying to be small, trying to be still or trying to be bold. All this ‘trying’ makes me forget I am Oceanic.
More than a decade ago, a lovely dear friend handed me his own copy of the book – The Art of Stalking Parallel Perception. It was the book’s 10th Anniversary, and I was lucky to witness it going through a celebratory re-edit on the Parallel Perception online forum.
Through the forum, I learned about the community of Lujan’s students around the world and his lifestyle with Mizpah. Looking back, it was then that I had begun to expose the various aspects of my being and some of my tumultuous, secret metaphysical experiences. I became interested in the pleasantry of union and communion that Lujan’s students described.
I loved reviewing with a fine tooth comb The Art of Stalking Parallel Perception and riding the waves of realizations which came from interacting with Lujan, his books, students, and community. In Lujan’s body of work, there was something profoundly essential I recognized and resonated with, as it kept unlocking my many wounds.
Since then, through my searching, Parallel Perception has been my constant island home of safety in a sea of diverse influences – always anchoring me, always bringing me back to the most complete and strongest sense of reality.
Over the years, as each new book emerged, I diligently devoured each offering with fervor, allowing the wisdom to wash over me. Every time, I promised myself that one day – I would meet Lujan and study Lo Ban Pai. This was my aspiration.
Finding the books on Audible shifted something significant for me with the ability to passively listen deeply – over and over again. Focussing and re-focussing on passages which seemed beyond me. Also, connecting with some of the most profound learnings on the YouTube channel, the combined awareness of the viewers and editors makes the content feel strong compared to reading or listening solo.
When The Power of Emptiness was released – it was like Lujan had, all of a sudden, turned on all the lights. It was then that the darkness dawned on me. I saw many of my shadows scurrying away or dissolving with each pass at the content of the book, and someone began to solidify inside me – a version of self who had always been there.
All of my Parallel Perception dreams came alive when Lujan started doing Zoom classes during the global pandemic. Until then, I had only shared a few basic Skype experiences with Lujan, so gradually, with each online class, Lo Ban Pai had finally arrived as a practice in my physical life experience.
It took me twelve years to discover and accept a deep and complete trust in Lujan as my Teacher in answer to my prayers. Someone who is walking the planet here now – living and breathing as I do, meeting these times we are in – offering a renewed wisdom pathway and practice that I can completely embrace and absorb.
Learning with Lujan, I find more fully who I am, and I learn progressively to let go of who I am not.
Inheriting the burdens and blessings of First Nations traditions, actualities, and Ancestries – it can be difficult to carry some of what I carry and have it make sense in modern life and societies. Lujan helps make this manageable, easier to live, and a loving joy to experience.
I love the energy and power I begin to generate – to evolve, transform, synthesize, and share. To realize what can help and release what can harm. I await whatever rises on the horizon with a smiling ease – that previously I had long forgotten – how to gently hear my own heart sing.
In 2022, our underwater Volcano and Tsunami was the largest atmospheric explosion ever recorded in human history. Only erupting every thousand years, its’ ash plume extended high up into the stratosphere, cooling the planet and sound waves re-wrapping the Earth for many days. So arrived my time to stop hiding.
Lujan helps to reveal my truest self with my aspiration to keep practicing and continue learning Lo Ban Pai. May we all realize being our most beautiful, loving selves.
‘Ofa lahi atu (Much love to you),
Sēini
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Sēini, sending light for your evolving journey and gratitude for your gracious sharing.
I really enjoyed reading this. Realizing the importance of listening to your heart sing is beautiful reflection of how we all should aspire to do! Thanks Seini 😊
Thank you for expressing these words so wisely, so beautifully. You’re an inspiration. Good luck in this phase of your journey.
Your oceanic presence and words fill me with serenity and excitement. Thank you for being you Seini.
You had me from the thief and the ghost. Such honesty and bravery. I’m so interested in hearing more about your experience and where it takes you next.
Excellent review of a topic I didn’t even know I needed to learn about.
Beautiful journey Seini all the best with the scholarship xx
Your words are a reflection of our eternal search to discover who we are during this journey we call life. Never stop searching! Love you sister xo
Wish you fulfillment on your journey of self discovery Seini. Bode well.
Seini, your words are magic. Simple and honest and profoundly expressive of your own raw experiences that speaks to all our shared struggles and hope.
What a beautiful journey it’s been for you Seini. Thank you for sharing and all the best with what’s unfolding!
Thanks for sharing such a wonderful journey Seini. You have the most poetic writing voice. So grateful to have you in my life. Xx
Whilst I know this is late and I sincerely apologise for that Seini. I know that you are one of the most determined people I know. You love and shine with a fierceness and warrior light that is incredible to behold. I know that if not now, it will be in the future as you know and are strong on your path.
Seini you are incredible and I wish you the very best of blessings on this journey.
You are a powerhouse, a queen, a hunger like no other for knowledge I have seen.
I support you 100% in everything you do.
With much love xx
Seini, I love your majestic expression through words, art and energy, your openness, vulnerability and wisdom. You are an absolute inspiration. Xxx
Like so many times before, you have introduced me to a new idea in an incredibly poetic way. Thanks for writing this piece.
You put words to what I feel as muddy internal experiences. I’m grateful for your wisdom, Seini.
Your words are like the sound of the ocean, they reminded me of the first times I was reading The Art of Stalking Parallel Perception and doing star gazing. Once I visited a village on the Pacific called Awa-Amatsu (heaven’s harbor) with my small boy. We played on the beach and I lied there on the sand in early autumn and had strange feeling of what life was in those depths and how it came to the surface. I saw the sand as the remnants of those shells that had kept life until it needed them no more. Many years passed since and the carriage of my life traveled many roads, yet somehow I am still lying on that shore listening to the Ocean of life
I just love this one!
Profound, poetic and most significantly honest and honouring. Love to read and relish in these words of yours Seini. They feel like just the encouragement to pursue my own sense of experience. Wishing you all the best with these deep travels. Love you! 🩵
Love you Seini! Love your dedication!🫶🏽🙏🏽
Smooooooth! 🙏
This is so beautiful, all your learnings and teachings are.
Good luck with the scholarship!!
Love to you.
Beautiful words! Well wishes.