This application for the 2019 Parallel Perception Scholarship was submitted by Javier. This year the recipient will receive either attendance at the Gravity Series Workshop or participation in the Online Spiritual Guidance program. If you would like to offer your support for Javier please leave a comment at the end of this blog post.
The Nagual’s books have brought to my attention that we are beings at war. We have been at war for a very long time and the lineage of the Nagual is an ancient one. It seems that a great deal of effort and responsibility has been placed on many people throughout the years to get here to this day.
I understand that it is important to unlearn what I have learned in order to take in what is being revealed. One of the most complicated tasks I have ever encountered.
He is trying to teach us that we are much more than what we believe we are. That if I could learn to let go of fear and doubt a whole new world is waiting.
The Nagual has taught me to star gaze and moon gaze. I can sit out at night and gaze at the night sky in total silence. To see the stars disappear for a brief moment is something I enjoy doing. I still need to practice more of the moon gazing technique.
I have learned to watch more of a situation and not to add or take part of what is happening. It has made people a bit uncomfortable with me but that’s ok.
Other parts of the teachings are a little harder to do such as the mirror technique. I can be talking to someone at work and I am trying to see myself in them when all of a sudden I know that something is just not the same, as far as the person who I was talking to. I can see and feel that they have changed and I no longer wish to see them as myself.
There’s many more things that I have learned from the teachings and the impact that they have had on me has made me feel like a yo-yo.
Some days I do my best to live as prescribed. Living in the moment, staying in touch with my heart, trying not to leave a trace, eating healthy and so on. But then other times I fall completely off course. And indulgence takes over. I lack will power and it’s such a petty mental state and I feel totally hopeless that I often weep at my despair state of mind.
So having this feeling, bouncing from having purpose to unwillingness to fight is what I would like to do away with if I would get a chance to be with the Nagual. If it is possible to find out how to overcome this issue.
I know that we are beings at war.
I know we have been for a very long time.
I am sure that we have met in the past.
I just don’t remember.
The amnesia is too great.
I have no idea of what an undertaking of this magnitude will be or the outcome will be.
I truly feel that the most important lesson I have learned from the Nagual is to give.
To give unconditionally. To share.
So..
In the spirit of sharing.
How may I be of service?
Javier
Excellent submission, Javier. Know, too, that stars and planets all took some time adjusting before they reached their seemingly stable positions. I wish you success.
Dear Javier, I was reading your words with an open mind. After I finished reading, I realized I was smiling and felt a deep gratitude that you exist to share hope and inspire the world to find peace on this path.
Success with the scholarship!
Peace and joy!
Absolutely Javier, I also relate so much with what you say. Peace.
Yes
peace and love
Javier
Javier, what a great write up and for sharing a part of yourself. Your story, experience, and the current dilemma you describe are all too familiar to me. You are not alone, my friend. Practice the 8 gates, find peace and silence, and know it’s your gift (internal present) to share with all you experienced.
Peace and love. Wishing you luck for the scholarship drawing.