This application for the 2017 Parallel Perception Scholarship was submitted by Iliyan.  If you would like to offer your support for Iliyan please leave a comment at the end of this blog post.

I cannot describe well in words what I have learned from Lujan. It is like putting down on a list the flutter of butterfly wings.

And his benefactors have done this. I wonder when I read his first book how they could speak so true about us. Needless to say I was surprised at what was written because it sounds so different from what we hear every day.

I read his books, have attended workshop of Dragon’s Tears and practice regularly the movements as well as the moon gazing and (when I walk the streets) the mirror techniques.

I look into the horizon that is composed of silence and get absorbed by it, especially in autumn when it fills me with warmth. It is not only these practices or the effect of silencing they produce, it is also the touch to something beautiful and evanescent that was not here before him.

Memories of experiences like observing a flow of blue energy in a dream. The blog and his web site at present and all the essays written as response to his invitation. The articles he shares and even separate words. All are true gestures.

Or it is in the small transformations that occur while being touched by all this and in the same time feeling constant pressure from everyday routines and old habits. I know that there is effect upon my inner being even though I cannot describe it.

I observe, mostly myself, and know that before I was absorbed in my past and now I have somehow made light this burden, as if I am another.

I used to have self-pitying moods, thoughts and emotions that made my hands tremble and break dishes and I observe how gradually they diminished and do not come now.

I somehow focus on what is coming, by being in my circumstances, no matter how hard, as in a flow, that I observe while following or being suspended into. Whatever comes I recognize and feel if I am to go with it or not.

My circumstances do not offer much support for learning more with Lujan and yet I long for this. I want to be more heart-centered and aware. He gave me rare opportunity to feel the warmth in my heart and peek into who I am or who we are and what we are doing here.

I believe this opening and transformation are good and this is the way to proceed.

May we all arrive to this awareness that comes from love and gratitude and appreciation of life.

Thank you, Lujan, for everything.


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