Testimonial – Dragon’s Tears Workshop in the Tibetan Dzogchen Center
I’ve contemplated writing for many weeks. My words begin to form but I withhold them because my experience seems different from others’ I read here. I experienced EXTREME contrasts.
Each time we gathered, the energy of the group filled me with joy, commitment, devotion, encouragement; and outside of the tent, I often felt overwhelmed by solitude – and being a stranger in a strange land.
I looked upon Lujan with awe and appreciation for his humility, tenderness, vulnerability, and willingness to share these precious teachings with us; and I sat in disbelief and fear at the strength of his powerful seeing, and searing honesty and tenacity.
I sweated my *@! off in the big tent, cursing the heat every afternoon; and I basked in delight, rejuvenating in the cool turquoise-blue waves of the Atlantic. It felt like a baptism, washing away the weeks’ frustration — ascending renewed. (Thank You Dora and Chris!)
The flow of movements of Dragon’s Tears eludes me. I can’t remember the sequences without notes; but I am enjoying an easy flow of life. When I don’t think about what’s next in Dragon’s Tears, it’s an interesting dance with energy.
When I don’t think about what’s next in life, life flows! Life is different, it’s subtle, but it’s palpably different. I share what I see and feel and value with people, automatically, with friends, family, strangers, as if my words come through my voice involuntarily. I’m simultaneously aware of and surprised by them, not sure who created them. The interaction is not usual or expected.
I’m relaxed in a flow of energy, sensing a freedom, a deeper heart connection, something subtle yet genuinely real spiraling around us, between us — it is us!
Can an experience of such energy be described with words?
My head bows to you, Lujan and Mizpah, Jana and Will, and all the spiritual warriors who made the trek to Tenerife for Dragon’s Tears.
Ellie
USA
Very refreshing and honest portrayal of your experience. The awkwardness and strangeness you felt is so very relatable, especially when facing it all alone. I appreciate your candor shared here.
Thanks for the feedback Ellie.
I hope you will work away at the tears as long as it takes. You were in the first group to learn the Ling Kong Jing version which is more complex – I recall struggling with a more basic version in one-on-one training! I’ll learn the LKJ version sometime this week – can’t wait since the LKJ dimension of awakening the energy body is rocking my world. The tears becomes a special space and time once it integrates into the body. Some days it will even do its own thing!
I’m a stranger in a strange land each time I visit Lujan and that confronts me with odd things at times. Then again, I feel stranger each time I come home too but only compared to the ways I used to be set in. Practice on my own was a real challenge but I just had to work through it. After all, transformation is about change! Keep well!
I appreciate your encouragement. Tha experience of ‘it doing it’s own thing’ is extremely liberating, and interesting. Am I seeking the truth of my authentic being, or is it seeking realization of itself through me?
Lovely to read your testimonial, Ellie! I enjoyed meeting you in tenerife and some of what you write here is shared by me too. I still have to use the updated manual every time and the practice feels broken up by my constant checking, and revising, yet the magnetism is there and I also experience this beautiful flow/connection during my days and also a deeper inner resting place.
Thank you for your honesty and putting into words what’s indeed difficult, but you did it!
With love and gratitude
You are very welcome.