Testimonial
It’s liberating to be seen, and upon being seen to be unconditionally accepted.
Before meeting Lujan, I wasn’t even sure what shamanism was. I only knew from opening his book Awakening the Third Eye that the depth of his insight was unlike anything I had ever experienced. I had to meet him.
My experiences with Lujan in the Transformational Healing and Meditation sessions were similar in many ways to the testimonials I have read from others. I awaited nervously for our Skype session, I scripted questions I wanted to ask him, and then scribbled them out when I realized that many of the questions were self validating.
In my first session with him, I felt myself falling into a trance state. My intellect could not keep pace with his words. It didn’t matter. Lujan speaks wisdom to the heart, from the heart, bypassing the intellect so that he can truly be understood. My experience from this point onward was that Lujan knew my pains and my joys and spoke to them before I had a chance to ask. He related to me stories of his own experience that began to unfold an understanding in my awareness. He was constantly ahead of my thoughts and feelings.
My social self often tried to fill the gaps in conversation with words, because in stillness what is unreal disappears. In this way, that part of me felt uneasy at times. I habitually interrupted him to fill these gaps. Always polite and understanding, he already knew where I was going and allowed my questions patiently.
I knew the answers to most of my questions. I know what steps I need to take. I only needed to remember. Lujan facilitates a remembrance. I contacted Lujan because I needed to confirm that there are authentic teachers on this planet. Lujan is like the bumps on both sides of the lane of a highway. When we fall asleep and drift out of our lane the bumps awaken us to guide us back into our own lane.
I felt a very strong urge to become attached to Lujan, to initiate a friendship with him, to know more about him personally, and to continue to seek answers from him that are already within me. When one is seen and accepted unconditionally, it is real love. My conditioning prompted me to want to become attached to Lujan because it is a rare gift to know this kind of love in the modern world. That same conditioning prompts one to want to own something that cannot be owned.
Thank you Lujan for helping me to remember what love is, for renewing my faith in the light bearers of the world, and for reminding me that I am right where I need to be.
Thank you for your infectious laughter. It is the laugh that comes from being free. I am sincerely grateful for you.
Until next time my friend…
Ryan
USA
Loved the speed bump image, and honoring a gift by living it. Different aspects of moving along.
Thanks, everyone.
Thank you Ryan for sharing your beautiful experience. Lujan’s laughter, heard in Cosmic Giggle, reverberated an opening in me as well, in my heart/ body/soul. It ifeels like a primal remebering of boundless joy and infinite lightness of being. It has drawn me in, and onto a path that feels like a pathway ‘home’.
Thank you, Ryan, for this post and Derek for yours as well. Opening this blog this morning spoke to me deeply for last night I had a dream that Lujan was showing a group of students the beginning of the first movement from “Dragon’s Tears” and urging his students to practice. We all sat for a moment then Lujan asked a question. I wish I could remember exactly how he framed it but it was something like, “How do we communicate on this planet?” No one spoke for a long time. Finally I piped up, “Well, we’re human beings, so we use language.” Lujan looked at me briefly and said, “No. That’s not it.”
The dream ended. So what is it? Ryan, I think you share a vital clue: “Lujan speaks wisdom to the heart, from the heart.” Yes, I think that’s it. Lujan uses not the “intellect” but another avenue to communicate, an avenue that as human beings we discarded long ago so that it has withered from disuse.
I long to nourish that avenue, where among other things, self-validation becomes not only not needed but unnecessary.
Enough said! Thank you for the posts. Very heart-felt 🙂
Learning and using the 8 Gates and Lo Ban Pai are gestures that open that pathway of communication. It is unspoken yet tangible in a visceral level.
I had this mindset that I had to ‘practice’ the movements or meditation to get an outcome in some energetic level. I now see that I am using the movements to strengthen an energetic pathway, a communication, the outcomes of which cannot be predicted yet are tangible none the less. The more I do the movements and meditation the more I am within myself, and so I hear the universal heart speak beyond words.
My wells up with gratitude to Lujan and his benefactors for bringing this into being. How else to honour a gift but to live it.
Lots of love,
Luma
What a really great account of your experiences Ryan. I can really relate to the urge for further Connection and friendship with Lujan. The experience of the sessions with him, and with his online community as a whole over the past year, touched on a primal need I felt for a long time, to know I wasn’t pursuing a delusional fantasy in my own way based on things I’ve read. There are only a couple of people in my life who even look in this direction, and it sometimes seems like their interest is superficial, but wether this is a reflection of my own lack or me seeing the truth of it, it no longer matters as Lujan and the people of this community are real to me now in a way that makes it easier to live these teachings. A type of stress has disappeared in my interaction with all other parts of my life as a result. I still hope to have further contact with Lujan as my circumstances allow, and hope to find some brothers in arms to share more time with locally, but whether this happens or not, is good either way.
Thanks for sharing.
Thank you Derek. I feel the same way. My group of friends has changed drastically in the last few years from many friends of limited depth in our friendship to only a few friends who run very deep. There was a natural shedding of what no longer serves and still continues. Actually my path seemed to go a bit dormant until I came across Lujans work. Much love to you my friend.
You’re welcome