In Search of Deep Healing and Enhanced Body Awareness

This application for the 2019 Parallel Perception Scholarship was submitted by Chris. This year the recipient will receive either attendance at the Gravity Series Workshop or participation in the Online Spiritual Guidance program. If you would like to offer your support for Chris please leave a comment at the end of this blog post.

It was a time of deep change when Lujan’s work came into my life. I was young and sick and experiencing a backlash from investing everything I had into intelligence and what I considered to be God. It showed me another way.

The focus of my life took a 180-degree turn. I’d been on a deep healing and heart path but was led to believe that if one could find the right paradigm and invest in it deeply and religiously enough, then I would find my center, heal physically, and be able to make all the money I required in life.

I was in a crisis, financially, emotionally, physically and spiritually. With my introduction into Lujan’s work through The Art of Stalking Parallel Perception, understanding dawned on me.

I ceased to invest in structures and belief systems and started to try and humble myself to all I witnessed, whilst remaining a warrior to the shadow based elements of our collective reality. Thankfully this awareness was honest within me. But deep down I still felt there was ‘something’ – some spiritual standpoint, dimension, plane of existence, or reality that would gift me the power I’d been questing in my life.

It was a precious jewel that would be granted if I just found the way. It would make everything alright, or least make my life make sense. Whatever this mystery was, it would make me strong, stable and successful. Awakening The Third Eye took this apart at the seams.

When I got into doing the techniques from Lujan’s second book, another, deeper 180 turn took place. Not only did I realize the folly and dishonesty of my position, but I finally recognized on a body level that my third eye was a function of body/instinct, and not awareness/intelligence.

This shook the very foundations of my reality. My brain chemistry changed, and with it my fundamental position as a seer was being re-arranged at a cellular level. I was unable to find joy in my life for a long time until it stabilized. That stability is a defining characteristic in my life to this day.

It is a precious gift and provides me with an inner compass despite all the challenges I find in my circumstances. I would love that to deepen through training with and meeting Lujan.

I want to meet Lujan Matus. It’s as simple as that. I’ve been a student of his for a long time now, and yearn to experience the fluidity, power, and truth of being in his presence. Other than those around me who possess integrity, he is the only spiritual teacher I have had in my life for the last ten years.

In recent times, I’ve kept a daily Qi Gong practice and engaged in dietary and lifestyle changes. What I wish to achieve in undertaking tuition in Lo Ban Pai with Lujan is a clarification of my heart path, a deepening of my practice, and an opening to resolve my chronic health condition.

I’m doing many things that are supportive, but am beset by unsupportive states of mind, unresolved emotion, and physical frailty – all of which I have trouble navigating on a daily basis. I also wish to find a deepening of my Qi Gong practice, and a clarification of these techniques, deeper into body awareness. Finding the place where spirit and the physical meet, and basking in the energy provided is my dream in this life.

Thank you for the gift of this opportunity.

Chris